project Machina

I hate to look on the blood. I can`t stand the heart beat . 
My interior body scares me, so I decided to challenge this fear.
This is a part of myself and I don`t want to be afraid of what I have inside. 
So I was sitting and painting constantly trough two mounths entrails of human body, of my body. 
I was wondering how long I can stend this and if it is possible to tame this fear.